Yesterday I drove up to Everett, WA to walk the Labyrinth that has been constructed in brick at the Wiggums Hollow Park. I suppose I was hoping for some great spirtual awakening or the answer to all my questions at the very least. 'Cept, I don't have many questions anymore. I don't have answers either, and hey, my questions really are so trivial in the broader scheme of things.
Regardless, a Labyrinth "is an ancient symbol that relates to wholeness. It combines the imagery of the circle and the spiral into a meandering but purposeful path. The Labyrinth represents a journey to our own center and back again out into the world. labyrinths have long been used as meditation and prayer tools." (from www.lessons4living.com/labyrinth.htm). So, ok, I didn't read up on that until just now. I drove up to Everett to check it out - and hey, it was sunny yesterday - what a treat!
Here's what I learned...at the time it was a surprise (If I'd read up on it before I left I wouldn't have been so surprised.)...that arriving at the center is not the destination, one still needs to get back out.
So, here I've arrived at a new town, but my journey isn't done yet. Though I've known this, it was made concrete (or brick) yesterday in a rather tangible sense. It's been rather calming to "see", to "walk", the part that I've not done yet.
This morning I did some self marketing, not the usual "submissions". It was a nice change of pace to my job search. Over the weekend I was given the option at two homes to choose from, friends would like to sub-let to me. It would help them out and I wouldn't be locked in an area until I know it actually works for me. No need to make a decision until I start working. Why do they want to show me these things before I'm even ready?
I keep seeing myself getting out of my car going into work. I keep seeing people coming into my work area, sometimes it's an office, sometimes it's more open than that - always lots of windows. I am happy in all of this. I feel the "weight" of work and it feels good to be responsible and contributing. I keep seeing myself signing over a check for deposit in a bank setting, sometimes at the drive-thru, sometimes in the lobby. I really like the second home I was shown yesterday...since then I've been seeing my desk and my computer and all that jazz in that home.
Soon, soon I'll be "living the dream". I love that phrase (giggling).