Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
It is said that being out of work enhances one's capabilities at blogging. Let's put that to the test.
I know I've talked of morning voices before - maybe it was just last year. Let's say that's a good thing, that it was a year ago, that I'm not obsessed, and that I can remember the last ones. The voices that wake me in the morning, because that's what they do, aren't always nice to me. Sometimes they are a kick in the pants to get up and at something specific to the time. The voices mostly belong to people I know, someone in my life at the time. I don't hear from dead people...although future people have been known to show up, and completely confuse me until I get to know new people.
These aren't just disembodied voices I hear. They are "attached" to individuals. I get the visual of whoever it is as I'm waking. The visual isn't always how they look when I see them later in the day or in the week. They seem to appear to me more as I see them in my heart or in my head than they appear in person. I have my own personal cinema going on here with a strange costuming department.
Today's voice was from someone I've met recently - clean shaven, short hair, fitted clothing - basic Everyman. Except this morning he shows up just as I'm waking looking like a regular Jeremiah Johnson (although not as pretty as Robert Redford), or more like Jeremiah’s buddy (that later in the movie grew all his hair back so if the Indians scalped him he at least had a head of hair to show for it). The vision this morning apologized to me. He simply and completely apoligized to me. I hate to make assumptions on what he was apologizing for. But, I want to know more completely what he meant.
It was the quickest visit I’ve had. The voice and vision faded out faster than usual. I tried to stay asleep to regain any of this. I had questions. But it’s not to be. Even awake here in front of the computer I’m trying to regain some of this.
So, the voices still talk to me. If it’s insight I wish I knew how to use it better. If it's not insight, at least it's mildly entertaining.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Today a beautiful room was made available to me to send my prayers into the universe. I could describe the cushion of the tatami floors, the graciousness of the aura, the richness of the altar. But, nothing can describe how fulfilling the moment is when the connection is made within me to that which is outside me.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I've been reviewing the information in front of me, tossing or scanning and tossing then moving on. I've been doing a binder a day.
I don't know that I'll ever get the hang of this place.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Has been reconfigured into...a bedroom worthy of calling "Home".
Thursday, April 8, 2010
This weekend I have put aside the time to make her room welcoming. I have picked up a bedside table for her. I have a chest of drawers (on loan) and a blow-up bed (on loan as well). I started cleaning out the closet last weekend. I still have work to do there to finish emptying that closet. I would just like for her to have a room to call her own. Yet, (there's always a 'yet') I'm leaving the Thanksgiving/Christmas decorations in the closet. I think she'll get over it.
Some things coming out of her room will be moved into the living room, my room has the chest of drawers that needs to be moved, and the living room needs some rearranging to make everything fit against walls so I don't have to climb over furntiure to get to the kitchen - always a chore that way. I've invited a friend to bring her strong arms over to help wrestle furniture. If she doesn't respond by tonight I'm calling in my reserves (also known as new friends).
It's a new chapter for me, for my daughter...life never really slows down, now does it?
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
This may be slowing me down...or (almost better) it is giving me time to read. I've been reading things like books and newspapers and I've even been doing these amazing feats sitting in a living room comfy chair in the afternoon; as opposed to propped up in bed half an hour before lights out. I got a batch of cookies made yesterday morning - and promptly left them all with my friends and family up in the mountains. They are very very lucky, and now I have to bake a whole new batch for me. (oh yeah, oh darn)
It's a good thing I'm running these days. I say that for all the cookies I've been ingesting. Running has been good. We ran as a team on Saturday - as scheduled. The slow team (over twelve minutes for a mile - that's me) is scheduled to run 160 minutes. I admit it. I cheated. I ran (or walked really really fast, by my standards) for 120 minutes. I'll get the other 40 minutes on there soon.
I found it synchronistic that last year on Easter Saturday (my first year in Seattle) I visited West Seattle and Alki Beach for the first time. It was during that visit that I found rosemary and sage are used as ornamental bushes - and how cool is that! This year on East Saturday, as scheduled, I ran from Lincoln Park north to Alki Beach, and the rosemary and sage are just every where. Without trying it appears Alki has become my personal Easter Saturday tradition. I can live with this. I'd be happy to live with this. Traditions.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Funny, I'm happy for all the things I didn't do. I didn't do the extra driving. I didn't spend $30 for something that isn't going to work. I didn't open the back of my computer before it's necessary. I didn't try to replace something that might not have even fit, never mind not work. I'm not shuffling this card around on desks then tables and into closets in my house (where it would stay busy collecting dust and weighing down my house).
I am still without internet service at home. I did find an additional window/diagnostics area that let me know my computer is "reading" my wireless card. If I could just get in touch with the apartment manager and have him "reset" just to be sure it is not at that end. In essence I would like to measure three times. It costs nothing to measure.